As time pass by, we tend to change from one phase to
another. Along the way, we meet new people and they become a part of our lives.
Growing up, I’ve never been one of those prim and proper girls who happen to be
studious and do things by the book nor was I one of those who parties hard. I’m
the kind who goes for parties occasionally (live bands once awhile and I’m one
of those who is on the dance floor wiggling) but do things within the limits
that I set. I do things in moderation but of course I’m slightly more to my
girly side (especially shop).
Nowadays, I’m adapting to a healthier lifestyle and partying
is at the bottom of my list. It really is not because of the fact that I’m
married. Things started to change when I’m at my third year of my studying days
in university. It started with me being a morning person and starting to go for
jogs in the evenings. Then at my final year, I started to not go out after
midnight even if it is for supper. I would miss out tea sessions with friends
and head to bed early. The next day, I’ll be up really early, take a shower and
go to the terminal for breakfast while reading the newspaper. Don’t get me
wrong, I still do go out at night for movies and have those girls night out
kind of thing, but the ambiance I prefer is slightly more intimate. I also join
my friends to hang out at local hangout places like Rasta and once in a blue
moon, head for live bands.
Things got even more relaxed when I got together with my
Hubster in 2008. Sure, he loves to dance
but he only dances at the gym (this was before he joined SDC and started
performing). Even if we’re on a date at night, he will not only ensure that I’m
home in time, he will also try his best to be home by 12 o’clock. Now that I’m
married, I do not have the desire to go to clubs/bars nor do I know what the
current in electronic dance music is (not saying it’s bad.. some of it are
quite pleasant to listen to). Call me dull; call me an old woman, but it is
just not my cup of tea. And it is not like I don’t have fun at all; in fact I
do go for concerts.
Sometimes I contemplate to really be transparent about me
moving on but at the same time, I do not want them to think as if I think I am
better than them. Honestly, I’ve a long way to go. It is just that our preference
is very much different now. I even know that some of them didn’t want to
contribute nor participate in my bachelorette party previously because their
definition of fun is different. Yes, I know about it and honestly, I’m ok with
it. I am also not one of those who got all religious after getting married.
Sure, it is always good to get closer to God but I do things one step at a time. Yes, I know that Qiamat can happen anytime but I don’t want to fall out
after a drastic change. For now, I’m trying my best to perform my prayers
without fail.
Growing up, we are bound to make mistakes and fall. What’s
important is that we get back up. Knowing that I’m not perfect, I accept the
fact that I’ll screw up even when I’m moving on. The question is now, which
happens to be the hardest (and I doubt people would even care that I care), how do I move on gracefully and keep the offense at
minimal?
